This morning I woke up with a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach that nothing will ever be the same. I go through this every year when I feel the temperature drop and the leaves start to fall. It brings out a feeling of melancholy that I just can’t seem to shake.
This summer I have found myself lying on my back watching the clouds float by, much like I did when I was a kid. Allowing myself the time to daydream without a result or an agenda in mind is something that seems to have drifted away in my adult life.
This summer I have found myself lying on my back watching the clouds float by, much like I did when I was a kid. Allowing myself the time to daydream without a result or an agenda in mind is something that seems to have drifted away in my adult life.
Every year I hear myself say, “The summer is so short, if only it was just a little bit longer.” It’s the Canadian dilemma. Of course we can handle ALL seasons, but there is something extra sweet about those long, lazy, and sunny afternoons.
After an extended period of keeping our distance, we can’t help but miss the simple pleasures in life. I miss that sweet feeling of connection when I step through the door of a loved one, being greeted with a warm hug and a friendly smile.
Today my heart breaks for the world. At a time when we are feeling more disconnected than ever, I find it difficult that we are being held apart. I am a hugger, a hand-shaker and I’ve always been fond of how the French greet each other with a kiss on each cheek. And now, two meters is our new normal. It makes me sad.
It had been a long stressful week. I was satisfied with the outcome of the work that I had done, but it was definitely time for some rest. The couch was calling to me; I had a long list of binge-worthy shows just waiting to be watched.
The challenging thing about human beings is that we are utterly complicated creatures. Sometimes we don’t even know ourselves, yet we are expected to operate on a high level in teams with other people who are also trying to figure themselves out.
There have been moments when I feel like I am crumbling inside and unsure what to do next. I try to stand tall and operate from a place of truth and consider what is the decision for the highest good.
It was a day of back-to-back meetings and now we were on the road to our favourite downtown restaurant. I was feeling exhausted, but exhilarated by the day’s events, somehow fueled by the intensity of it all.